Okay, so I nanny for 4 children. 5 days a week, 7.30am -6pm, and with children its not always a promise you'll get a break. Which I am fine with, I love my job and I'm aware 3/5 days there isnt any stress but when you get a bad week, you get a really bloody bad week.
So I had a bad week, then my nieces stayed over whilst my brother and his wife went to Rome.
I adore my nieces, they make me smile so much. They're beautiful, funny, smart. They're learning everyday, they're amazing. You get the picture, I love them right?
Well after a long week at work, what I needed was a break. Instead it was followed by an intense weekend of children, then on Monday/Tuesday to help my mum out (I should mention the youngest is 6 months old, and the oldest is 3) I said I would meet up with her so the eldest had someone to play with, as the youngest needs alot of attention.
Ultimately, that meant on Monday there was 4 children (I don't look after all 4 of mine on a Monday)
then today, we had six.
SIX CHILDREN FROM AGES 6 MONTHS TO 4.
I AM DEAD.
I'm going to sleep now, I have another three days then the weekend (although I'm still babysitting on the Saturday)
Zzz...
Tuesday, 27 January 2015
Saturday, 17 January 2015
My dog.
I love my puppy so much, hes always there. Always waiting always loving. He is always there always comforting.
He's so gorgeous a 6 year old Border Collie. Alfie :)
He's so gorgeous a 6 year old Border Collie. Alfie :)
He's so excited to see me, and is such a perky guy. Then when I'm feeling down he just nuzzles me with his wet nose and buries himself in me I can not describe how adorable he is.
And he is so bloody intelligent. I know everyone thinks their dog is the cutest and the smartest and everything but holy crap Alfie is so obedient.
I love him with all of my heart - and sorry about the short weird dog appreciation post.
I love him with all of my heart - and sorry about the short weird dog appreciation post.
But honestly he's my rock.
Friday, 9 January 2015
Soulmates exist.
No, I haven't found "the one", couldn't be further from it to be quite frank. I'm beyond caring anyway, I genuinely need to focus on myself.
What I mean is I think everyone who makes an impact in your life is a soulmate to you, some are meant to last, others are meant to just open your eyes in a quick fleeting moment.
My best friends are my soul mates, in 2014 I became close to some people that I can tell is a "true" friendship. Some of the friendships were a case of rekindling an old fire, a small bit of attention and we were once again burning bright, another one was one of those moments where you realise how funny you find eachother and then you realise you've spent 4/7 days with them, and then theres the cyber ones. You may have met them, you may not. You may hardly ever see them, you may never meet them. But you talk every day. The ones who aren't too involved, or can take a step back and give a non bias opinion. An honest one.
If you know me, you'll know exactly which friendship you are, and chances are who the others are too.
So with my soulmates, I'm going to have the most memorable, most amazing 2015 ever, because thanks to these guys I get out of bed every day. They inspire and amaze me to keep going, to look around the next corner, to investigate that bit further, to get my next answer. I can guarantee you once I have found my answer, they'll be there ready to challenge me with the next question.
So no, I am not in love with them, theres no wedding bells and no babies on the way. But I do love them.
What I mean is I think everyone who makes an impact in your life is a soulmate to you, some are meant to last, others are meant to just open your eyes in a quick fleeting moment.
My best friends are my soul mates, in 2014 I became close to some people that I can tell is a "true" friendship. Some of the friendships were a case of rekindling an old fire, a small bit of attention and we were once again burning bright, another one was one of those moments where you realise how funny you find eachother and then you realise you've spent 4/7 days with them, and then theres the cyber ones. You may have met them, you may not. You may hardly ever see them, you may never meet them. But you talk every day. The ones who aren't too involved, or can take a step back and give a non bias opinion. An honest one.
If you know me, you'll know exactly which friendship you are, and chances are who the others are too.
So with my soulmates, I'm going to have the most memorable, most amazing 2015 ever, because thanks to these guys I get out of bed every day. They inspire and amaze me to keep going, to look around the next corner, to investigate that bit further, to get my next answer. I can guarantee you once I have found my answer, they'll be there ready to challenge me with the next question.
So no, I am not in love with them, theres no wedding bells and no babies on the way. But I do love them.
Tuesday, 6 January 2015
Its all about the money
I didn't know what I wanted to write about, so I looked into things I want to do.
One of those things this year is Disneyland Paris..
Now call me corny. But Disneyland is a special place for me. I went when I was 15 with my Nan and Grandad (and Aunt and cousin), but my Grandad got more disabled and so really that was my last AMAZING memory of him. We even got him on a roller coaster. He couldn't do much, but to see how happy it made me and Jack well, that was what made that easter break so special for him. (Or so he said!)
So for me I couldn't just go willy nilly to disneyland, it would have to be with someone special. Thats why I want to go with my best friend.
Unfortunately after looking at some of the prices it seems like right now that may not be do-able, but it got me thinking. Thinking enough to make a post.
How comes its the people who work hardest seem to have less. I see so many people who were at my school who have literally strolled through life and have some how "made it" and yes I am envious! Or people who land on their feet with literally no work at all!
Then theres other people where I'll take my hat off too and say no you know what you've worked bloody hard and you deserve that.
I don't go out every weekend, I am not a reckless person. I think the thing I waste my money on most is smoking - which is at most £45 a month. Some people spend that on a night out alone which they can't remember the next day. I have been working since 16 in the same career and worked my way up... so why don't I have cash which is disposable, easy to throw away? When is that going to be me?
I know I'll get there one day, and I won't give up, but I just want to be there today.
Good god its frustrating.
One of those things this year is Disneyland Paris..
Now call me corny. But Disneyland is a special place for me. I went when I was 15 with my Nan and Grandad (and Aunt and cousin), but my Grandad got more disabled and so really that was my last AMAZING memory of him. We even got him on a roller coaster. He couldn't do much, but to see how happy it made me and Jack well, that was what made that easter break so special for him. (Or so he said!)
So for me I couldn't just go willy nilly to disneyland, it would have to be with someone special. Thats why I want to go with my best friend.
Unfortunately after looking at some of the prices it seems like right now that may not be do-able, but it got me thinking. Thinking enough to make a post.
How comes its the people who work hardest seem to have less. I see so many people who were at my school who have literally strolled through life and have some how "made it" and yes I am envious! Or people who land on their feet with literally no work at all!
Then theres other people where I'll take my hat off too and say no you know what you've worked bloody hard and you deserve that.
I don't go out every weekend, I am not a reckless person. I think the thing I waste my money on most is smoking - which is at most £45 a month. Some people spend that on a night out alone which they can't remember the next day. I have been working since 16 in the same career and worked my way up... so why don't I have cash which is disposable, easy to throw away? When is that going to be me?
I know I'll get there one day, and I won't give up, but I just want to be there today.
Good god its frustrating.
Monday, 29 December 2014
Didn't take long for me to go quiet...
Sorry, I had a lot of things to think about and to sort out within myself. I'm still not completely okay but I have a much better grasp on things now then I did my last post - a lot of unanswered questions which has eased my mind,
I had a wonderful christmas, spending Christmas day with my best friend, and then boxing day was spent with family.
I'm not in the most creative mood so I won't write for long, but just wanted to say I am still here, and that I don't plan on ditching this just yet.
I'm currently throwing out a lot of old clothes, making space for the upcoming year ahead. This feels good and is helping me clear my head.
Hopefully I'll have more to talk about soon.
I hope you all had amazing christmas' too!
I had a wonderful christmas, spending Christmas day with my best friend, and then boxing day was spent with family.
I'm not in the most creative mood so I won't write for long, but just wanted to say I am still here, and that I don't plan on ditching this just yet.
I'm currently throwing out a lot of old clothes, making space for the upcoming year ahead. This feels good and is helping me clear my head.
Hopefully I'll have more to talk about soon.
I hope you all had amazing christmas' too!
Monday, 15 December 2014
The worst feeling in the world
I don't know why I started a blog again honestly.
I need to get this off of my chest.
I'm not the most stable of people, and right now I am struggling. I don't feel like myself. I feel disgusting. I feel vile.
I feel like I'm losing myself.
I'm writing a million things, and then hitting the backspace over and over again.
Who am I? I don't feel like I know the answer right now.
Forward ten steps, back thirteen.
I need to get this off of my chest.
I'm not the most stable of people, and right now I am struggling. I don't feel like myself. I feel disgusting. I feel vile.
I feel like I'm losing myself.
I'm writing a million things, and then hitting the backspace over and over again.
Who am I? I don't feel like I know the answer right now.
Forward ten steps, back thirteen.
Sunday, 14 December 2014
50 Facts About Me
Okay, so I'm really sorry I am fully aware of the fact that I just posted but I got inspired by reading someone elses 50 Facts about me (http://convoygloss.blogspot.co.uk/2014/12/50-facts-about-me.html if you want to have a read at what got me bombarding you guys with posts tonight) but here are mine;
1) I have two tattoo's
2) I am a Nanny for my work, and I love it! I actually became self employed at 19!
3) I am the youngest sibling by 10 years
4) I love tortoises and I really want one!
5) I binge watch tv on Netflix (currently on Breaking Bad)
6) I'm an incredibly loud person - I will out shout, laugh, talk, "sing", speak, anyone. You do it? I'll do it louder!
7) I drink a lot. Not even alcoholic, but I'll easily drink 3litres of water a day.
8) I have my tongue pierced, and my nose. (I actually nearly gave my mum a heart attack as I got it all done within the space of 2 weeks, and she had no idea about any of it bless her she hates it all)
9) I only wear odd socks.
10) I have been dying my hair and plucking my eyebrows since I was 8
11) If I ever see the clock on 11:11 I make a wish
12) BANKSY is my favourite artist
13) 13 is my lucky and favourite number
14) I have a Ford C Max TDCI and I LOVE it!
15) I can get aggressive when it comes to protecting those I love
16) I push a lot of people away
17) I am a Disney addict
18) I am obsessed with Peter Pan (hence the name of my blog!)
19) I am overall a happy person
20) My nieces means the world to me.
21) I love Pandora bracelets
22) My thumbs look like toes
23) I can do the mexican wave with my tongue
24) I lost my virginity in Amsterdam hahaha
25) I used to play hockey, and hope to start again as I really miss it.
26) I've lost a lot of friends this year, and have taken it surprisingly well.
27) I've only just started to open up to my family this year, not intentionally I just found it hard to be an emotionally open and approachable person when it came to them.
28) I love my dog to bits
29) I enjoy smoking, but I am not addicted its only because I enjoy it. I'll sometimes go more than a week without one without noticing.
30) My legs and eyes are my favourite part of me
31) I am not religious in the slightest way, but for some reason really like Jesus things haha
32) I'll talk to anyone
33) I laugh at least 6+ times a day (bent over, crying with laughter kind)
34) I have only ever been in love once - and got my heart broken this year.
35) I tend to have more singular friends then big groups
36) My sister is one of my best friends
37) I have been a bridesmaid twice
38) I'm unhappy with my weight
39) I am often quite unintentionally offensive when it meant was meant to be a compliment
40) I'm not girly in the slightest
41) My favourite colours are blue and green
42) Most of my clothes are black
43) I'm 5'5
44) I actually really enjoy making lists
45) I enjoy having sunbeds
46) I listen to all types of music
47) My taste-buds change a lot
48) I hate the sound of people scraping their plates at dinner makes me feel sick
49) I would rather be in a pub or bar instead of a club
50) I love wearing boots
So there you go, a little insight of me. If anyone else does these, do let me know and I'll read and comment away :) Thats enough posts for one Sunday!
1) I have two tattoo's
2) I am a Nanny for my work, and I love it! I actually became self employed at 19!
3) I am the youngest sibling by 10 years
4) I love tortoises and I really want one!
5) I binge watch tv on Netflix (currently on Breaking Bad)
6) I'm an incredibly loud person - I will out shout, laugh, talk, "sing", speak, anyone. You do it? I'll do it louder!
7) I drink a lot. Not even alcoholic, but I'll easily drink 3litres of water a day.
8) I have my tongue pierced, and my nose. (I actually nearly gave my mum a heart attack as I got it all done within the space of 2 weeks, and she had no idea about any of it bless her she hates it all)
9) I only wear odd socks.
10) I have been dying my hair and plucking my eyebrows since I was 8
11) If I ever see the clock on 11:11 I make a wish
12) BANKSY is my favourite artist
13) 13 is my lucky and favourite number
14) I have a Ford C Max TDCI and I LOVE it!
15) I can get aggressive when it comes to protecting those I love
16) I push a lot of people away
17) I am a Disney addict
18) I am obsessed with Peter Pan (hence the name of my blog!)
19) I am overall a happy person
20) My nieces means the world to me.
21) I love Pandora bracelets
22) My thumbs look like toes
23) I can do the mexican wave with my tongue
24) I lost my virginity in Amsterdam hahaha
25) I used to play hockey, and hope to start again as I really miss it.
26) I've lost a lot of friends this year, and have taken it surprisingly well.
27) I've only just started to open up to my family this year, not intentionally I just found it hard to be an emotionally open and approachable person when it came to them.
28) I love my dog to bits
29) I enjoy smoking, but I am not addicted its only because I enjoy it. I'll sometimes go more than a week without one without noticing.
30) My legs and eyes are my favourite part of me
31) I am not religious in the slightest way, but for some reason really like Jesus things haha
32) I'll talk to anyone
33) I laugh at least 6+ times a day (bent over, crying with laughter kind)
34) I have only ever been in love once - and got my heart broken this year.
35) I tend to have more singular friends then big groups
36) My sister is one of my best friends
37) I have been a bridesmaid twice
38) I'm unhappy with my weight
39) I am often quite unintentionally offensive when it meant was meant to be a compliment
40) I'm not girly in the slightest
41) My favourite colours are blue and green
42) Most of my clothes are black
43) I'm 5'5
44) I actually really enjoy making lists
45) I enjoy having sunbeds
46) I listen to all types of music
47) My taste-buds change a lot
48) I hate the sound of people scraping their plates at dinner makes me feel sick
49) I would rather be in a pub or bar instead of a club
50) I love wearing boots
So there you go, a little insight of me. If anyone else does these, do let me know and I'll read and comment away :) Thats enough posts for one Sunday!
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