Its all about the money

I didn't know what I wanted to write about, so I looked into things I want to do.
One of those things this year is Disneyland Paris..

Now call me corny. But Disneyland is a special place for me. I went when I was 15 with my Nan and Grandad (and Aunt and cousin), but my Grandad got more disabled and so really that was my last AMAZING memory of him. We even got him on a roller coaster. He couldn't do much, but to see how happy it made me and Jack well, that was what made that easter break so special for him. (Or so he said!)

So for me I couldn't just go willy nilly to disneyland, it would have to be with someone special. Thats why I want to go with my best friend.
Unfortunately after looking at some of the prices it seems like right now that may not be do-able, but it got me thinking. Thinking enough to make a post.

How comes its the people who work hardest seem to have less. I see so many people who were at my school who have literally strolled through life and have some how "made it" and yes I am envious! Or people who land on their feet with literally no work at all!
Then theres other people where I'll take my hat off too and say no you know what you've worked bloody hard and you deserve that.

I don't go out every weekend, I am not a reckless person. I think the thing I waste my money on most is smoking - which is at most £45 a month. Some people spend that on a night out alone which they can't remember the next day. I have been working since 16 in the same career and worked my way up... so why don't I have cash which is disposable, easy to throw away? When is that going to be me?
I know I'll get there one day, and I won't give up, but I just want to be there today.
Good god its frustrating.